hey everyone,

I have move to tumblr and here is my link:http://livin-in-my-world.tumblr.com

im still trying to get use to everything around there, some how i just dont blog as often as i used to , maybe it is the age, or maybe my life is boring, but oh well, i will blog at tumblr, see you guys there

TOodles
Rachel

I THINK my sis has violent tendency , well it is a thought but sometimes i suspect that it would come true . It is so scary the way she talks when she is angry . It is like she could kill someone the next moments, i know why we are both upset , a choice to USA or our Singapore holiday plans . It is difficult , counting the fact that we both have never step foot into USA , for me , it is to give up my dream of performing public , I so wanna perform , but it is difficult to form a band , sometimes human beings just have no sense of commitment in life , I wish I was like this for every thing . And when I found the people who could commit , I can't play . Oh well people who don't understand me would not understand this . I do what I love best . For my sis it is the idea of working , she has never really had any job experience so this is the first time she is planning to work . But now she has to reject allthe jobs to go USA. Oh well I wish I could duplicate myself into 2 then I can have both , but then my passion will oso split into 2 and that is a bad thing

Admittly, I don't like staying at home . Why ? I feel very cooped up at home , i always get disappointed And angry faces. I may not be the cleanest or the most responsible person around , yes I love to not make my bed , I like to pile things all over my table area, I love leaving mess all around, I might actually not be an ideal roommate . Sometimes I feel happier when I'm alone at home . That way I can be free to sing at the top of my voice . Do random and crazy moves around the house or try new things such as juicing tons of fruit juices for myself only. I just get upset when thing that are not my fault , I'm blame for too . I think I should live alone, asap .

It's so difficult to talk to Raina nowadays after the previous incident , it gets more awkward. I mean how do things end up like that . I always thought that no matter how many people turn their backs against me . When I run back home , she would be there for me , but now things are not good , apparently I'm not the ideal sister la. I was and am nobodies ideal , because selfish as I'm , I wanna do things that make me happy , that inspire me. Oh well I don't know what to do at times

TOodles
Rachel

Sometimes I wish I'm not myself, I'm someone else , someone else that does not worry.but then again everyones life has a worry. I'm really tired of all this , but I must want it to be desperate to get my A and B to forgo everything just to attain it , sometimes I dun really care if I study until I turn crazy or not , all I want is my nice score.

Just do it

TOodles
Rachel

I just feel so upset and miserable , even though i promise my boyfriend i would not be. Now he is in his orientation camp and they have those type of match making stuff so he has got a date( well it is inevitable for the orientation camp , that girl has a boyfriend too) But being the jealous me, i feel so upset that im stuck at home while he is out there( enjoying himself??? not sure), well i don't blame him cause it is compulsory for all campers,  i bet that girls boyfriend feel the same way i feel too. oh well i just feel so emo. AND YES, im missing him like crazy now.

Thank god for kenny and li ying they made me feel better in the  early afternoon. NOw i have got chem and maths to do. GOOD LUCK RACHEL.

im officially missing you

TOodles

Rachel

That's the view i want, the Eiffel tower outside my window, sometimes i just wish that my life was songs or movies something that could withstand time. i wish i could just hop on a plane to paris now, after hearing all about it and how beautiful and wonderful it can be. to stroll down the streets with the cold air blowing against my face. to hold hands with my love one. i mean all this is something i want. Of course there will be work in the morning but just to know that i could live in a city with beautiful lights . I don't mind running away just for this moment . a single moment in my life.

Through the hardships of love only then will it be story to touch others

TOodles

Rache;

Been wanting to upload an artistic photo on my blog post , so here it is, this photo is from deviant art. oh well kudos to the photographer. my life has been hectic i don't really have time to blog and i have even give up my facebook games. Yay me  haha. Oh well this few months have been trying for me and my boyfriend. Why because of many series of events. First it was his parents, then it came to the church and now his parents on his new found faith. Sometimes i wonder if i could take the easier way out, but i guess if i did then i would not grow , it is really learning how to trust that the lord protects and provides in our lifes that matters. of course life will be better after all the problems we have been through. i'm gonna place my trust in god. Anyway mid years are coming, i am wating for the nine month holiday after the next 5 months of hard work.

Thats all

TOodles

Rachel

Been wanting to upload an artistic photo on my blog post , so here it is, this photo is from deviant art. oh well kudos to the photographer. my life has been hectic i don't really have time to blog and i have even give up my facebook games. Yay me  haha. Oh well this few months have been trying for me and my boyfriend. Why because of many series of events. First it was his parents, then it came to the church and now his parents on his new found faith. Sometimes i wonder if i could take the easier way out, but i guess if i did then i would not grow , it is really learning how to trust that the lord protects and provides in our lifes that matters. of course life will be better after all the problems we have been through. i'm gonna place my trust in god. Anyway mid years are coming, i am wating for the nine month holiday after the next 5 months of hard work.

Thats all

TOodles

Rachel

Fear is such a strong thing, it can grip someone and control you. one fear is tomorrow, i am bringing my boyfriend for the alpha course in church, i am really scared, i just dunnoe how those in heart judgemental ppl will comment and say all about him la. i am trying not to bother, but i can't . God help me pls

TOodles

Rachel